And So The Moral Of This Story Is…
And so the moral of this story is: Driving is an extension of your personality for better or worse. So from this day forward I will try my best not to be 4 to 5 thousand pounds of absent minded, short sighted, multi-tasking potential death at 65mph. From this day I will try to extended the better part of my personality in driving. Cautious, conscientious, aware of others and centered on one thing while driving. Driving.
So bout an hour and a half ago I was heading to work and as I accelerated from the on ramp by my house to the freeway (where they have been doing a lot of work lately) as I got on suddenly I couldn’t figure out what the f*** was going on as there were a bunch of big orange cones and what not. It merged immediately from the ramp into a single lane. As I tried to quickly get over suddenly I see an oncoming car. We damn near hit each other. And it turns out to my lucky day: It’s a highway patrol car.
“Stick both your hands out the window.”
I’ll skip the rest of the story except to say, he let me off way easy with a merge ticket, when he could have taken me to jail and taken away my license. But more importantly this was one of those life changing moments when I decided that I am gonna drive the speed limit (did I mention I was speeding coming on the ramp, can’t see my speedometer: lights out, but that’s no excuse) and when I’m driving focus just on that. Not cell phones, cigarettes, text messages, road raging, changing cds and all that other crap we all do while we drive around on auto pilot half the time.
I could have killed myself, that cop or someone else. Or put them in the hospital like my brother. Since no one got hurt, it was a good lesson for me. So thank you Officer Robertson. He had lost a son on that same highway.
In other news, I guess we are finally gonna try and take a stab at taking Dai home. I think it will be really good for him. The Doctor told me the last time I was there that it would probably be the best thing for him to have family around 24/7. We are just working on getting the round the clock nursing and Mae found an on call Doc. Are all pretty excited (and I’m sure a little scared too). But I have no doubt that this is what’s best for him. We will finally be able to start putting him in the oxygen chamber. We are hoping to land an apartment/home around the corner from Mae. My mom, Mae, Gina and so many of the people that we only met as a result of the accident (mostly via the onelovesite-thank you people so much!!!). DJ Hefe, Matt (a preemptive welcome home homey), the list would go on forever. I can’t lie: There are days when I get so f***ing down, but I know in my heart that everyday is a blessing and just when I think I can’t take anymore, someone (maybe even a stranger) will do something so right, maybe even unconsciously- that it restores my faith that there is harmony in the 10,000 plus things. It gives me hope that we as humans may even be able to undo the coming Eco-disaster we’ve been building. Maybe we won’t fulfill our fate of being the only one of Gods’ Creatures to cause it’s own extinction.
Anyway, belated Happy birthday Dai!!!
The fifteenth he turned 39.
Honestly, I had hoped we would at least be walking by this point, but I won’t go into detail again about how the medical “INDUSTRY”/Insurance f***ing scam can almost kill you in the process of bleeding you to death financially. The space ain’t for me to rant. Too much anyway.
To all the people that I’ve met here.
To all the people that have given what they can.
Although I may never directly be able to pay you back, know that I am doing my part too- To try and make the world a better place. Even if that means not killing everyone on my darker days.
But don’t let the smooth taste in these words fool you.
Personally lately my life has finally been good.
A couple years back after I moved here to Idaho, I was cleaning up (drugs/alcohol) and working hard and I was wondering if it would make any difference if I was stealing, dealing and doing whatever else. If Karma did really exist. I just wasn’t getting any breaks. But I kept trying to walk the straight and narrow for once in my life.
It’s finally paid off.
My Sunshine is straight A kid and love of my life.
I’ve got a good woman I want to grow old with.
I’ve got a family to die for.
And hell, I even landed a descent job after living on credit cards (20k stacks up quick, but let me tell you- We got them by the balls now. I don’t pay late fees, overlimit. Nothing: they’ll take what they can get).
And I’ve got faith.
Maybe thanks to you.
So thank you for those of you that have been instrumental in helping to at least keep my brother alive. I have faith that once we get him out of the institution improvements will come tenfold. I won’t go into details, but there were a couple of times when methinks if it was anyone else but Dai, they’d be gone.
So far as I can tell he wants to be with us. I hear he is frustrated, but can’t really speak perfectly yet. Groaning and a couple words here and there. I’m sorry brother. You’re coming home like I said. One foot in front of the other. You don’t give up on me and I don’t give up on you.
Rest well. It’s 4:21 a.m. somewhere. Gnite for now.
-M.
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don’t get down brother.. i’m always here when you need someone.. just call me up… great things are coming and dai is recovering.. keep your faith brother..
much love,
gina
Hey there Ming,
I sure do love to read your blogs! I sure do miss seeing you on a daily basis to get my ration of sarcasm, humor, and the too often reality slap. You deserve the good things in your life. Everything always comes full circle. Please be good to yourself. Love to all of you, Mom
RIGHT ON MING !! I FEEL YA, I AM SO GUILTY OF NOT PAYING ATTENTION, FRUSTRATED AND EVERYONE IN MY WAY…RENEE TOLD ME TO READ YOUR BLOG CAUSE I WAS SO PISSED WITH EVERYTHING I WAS READY TO THROW ALL THE WORK IN MY GARAGE OUT IN THE STREET AND SAY F**K IT, BUT AS SOON AS RENEE TEXT ME TO READ THIS I AUTOMATICALLY THAUGHT OF DAI,AND THE WHOLE FAMILY , AND I SUDDENLY REALIZED I HAVE A GREAT LIFE, AWESOME WOMAN, LOTS OF WORK,AND I AM BLESSED TO BE DEALING WITH EVERYTHING THAT COMES MY WAY…….WHENEVER I GET THAT WAY OR HERE SOMEONE ELSE COMPLAING ABOUT EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING, I ALWAYS TELL THEM, IN A STERN VOICE HEY, BE GREATFUL THAT YOU CAN GET UP WALK TO THE BATHROOM TO JUST GO PEE, BE GREATFUL YOU CAN WALK AND TALK, THERE ARE ALOT OF PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD THAT WOULD GIVE ANYTHING TO JUST DO THAT.!!!!!!! AND THEN I PRAY FOR DAI AND SAY GOD, PLEASE GIVE THAT DAY TO HIM TO JUST BE ABLE TO GET UP AND WALK TO THE BATHROOM, AND PISS……….IT’S SOUNDS SO SIMPLE AND STUPID TO SOME, BUT WE WOULD ALL GIVE ANYTHING FOR DAI TO BE ABLE TO DO THAT…GOD BLESS YOU MING AND THE WHOLE CHENG GANG….IT IS BECAUSE OF DAI AND THE WHOLE CHENG ARMY THAT HELPS ME NEVER GIVE UP, IT COULD ALWAYS BE WORSE…….SO WITH THAT THANKS FOR PUTTING ME BACK IN REALITY……BE SAFE SMOKEY OH YEAH AND WHEN AUNT RENEE AND I GET MARRIED SHE SAID I CAN WEAR SOMETHING COMFORTABLE, SO I AM WEARING MY ONELOVEFORCHI / MAKE IT HAPPEN T-SHIRT….DAI IS ALWAYS WITH US ALL IN EVRYTHING WE DO, WE JUST SOMETIMES FORGET,AT LEAST FOR ME…..LATER
I’m proud of you Ming!
The family and OneLove Army are gonna pull Dai through this! He’s strong and has so many people loving him and pulling for him!
Love you….Aunt Mary
Keep it kickin’ Chi
Peace
Thats awesome news Ming, that youre life is starting to take shape, and im sure will be complete once Dai wakes up, it will be the Happiest day for you your family and us the extended family.
God bless you Ming.
Hello everyone,
I’m new to the One Love for Chi blog and needless to say
I’m so moved by all the love this man has recieved in his journey to recovering and there will be one TRUST recovery that is.
With all the love,prayers,thoughts,and donations ….
This awesome person has!!!It amazes me that this FATHER,brother,son,and muscian has so much support out here for him.
My best wishes on his recovery my son Kal-el Gabriel also can’t wait for him to get better his better moments of Chi are on the DVD of music videos on the B-rated compilation CD.
He keeps asking me momma when is the cool man going to make music again.I told him soon enough son soon enough he is only 2 but can’t get enough of the group and of Chi.
much love to all and Gina you my friend are a saint among saints …You have such a great heart and your actions for this family has been motivational for those who think life aint crap.
Thanks for the inspiration and love that you show to all in the world and to me.
-Santa C
hey santa.. thanks so much. i appreciate your kind words. chi is an amazing person.. i will do anything i can to help this brother out… he more than deserves it.
many blessings to you..
one love for chi,
gina
Ming, You keep amazing me! God is good! I believe 100% “what goes around, comes around” or visa-versa. Every day I learn something new, it never ceases to amaze me. I will never stop making mistakes or growing up, and thank God I will never stop learning. Dai is going to get better and many lives will be changed for the good. This is what I believe. Love you.
Hi Ming, that’s great that your drive ended well and that you’re safe. The positive direction your life has taken shows that karma does indeed work and good things happen to good people – in the end.
Wish Dai, you and your family the best of luck with moving him home and with his care. May it lead to good things and also to Dai being able to start his oxygen treatments. Take care and good luck! One love – always.
Sounds like things are still progressing in the right direction. Just slow. Everyone hang in there. My wife and have been going through this since Feb 08. It sucks…its slow…its hard….and unless you are a millionaire the care and therapy and rehab is never good enough. Right now we are dealing with a kidney stone and the poor girl hasn’t eaten in over a year. How is that fair? I read on here earlier someone said she thought Chi wasn’t getting accepted at some of the facilities because he actually wasn’t meant to be there. I firmly believe that to be true. When the time is right you will know. Everyone heals differently from a TBI so don’t worry about the “rehab..early and often” business. And also don’t believe the crap they will tell you about after 1 or 2 years what you see is what you get. Thats nonsense from the insurance companies and medical establishment in this country. Everyones worried about how they will look (success stories) instead of being patient and persistent no matter how long it takes or how much it costs. Would like to know how this hyperbaric oxygen business turns out. Stay strong brother Chi and family. No medicine can do what we as a family have gotten her to accomplish with love and perserverance.
Be positive and like I tell my wife Vicki “We will never give up!”
Hello everyone – (including my loving family),
When I read the writings on this site, I can’t help but marvel at the courage that people sometimes display. Sharing is courageous, sharing is caring. So, let me do so.
When you care about someone, or when you seek the truth in some situation, or when you recognize the spirit of God in someone, you open your heart, search for the absolute truth, and see the flame of the love of The Creator in some other person. I’m serious. Its like ripping open the Iron Curtin of defense around yourself. It must be what we, as part of this universe, are meant to do. Its a kind of a goal of most religions to enable people to do this. There is a word for it. I’m not trying to be a smart ass, but they call it “Metanoia”. Its Latin.
I know one thing for sure – as sure as I know I’m alive this moment, that the Devil, or evil ,or whatever you wish to call it, hates us for doing it. he makes us a target for his hate. he will try to get us to fall – anyway he can. he wants us dead and defeated and broken hearted. That’s what the evil one wants.
Now, my wife is asking me if I’m, ” writing a book over there?” so Its time to wind it up.
Don’t stop what your doing. Its one way that good overcomes evil. Be wary. Know that evil will try to mess you up, but be brave anyway. Hell, we know what it’s like in hell. Most of us have been there before, or are there, or feel it nipping at our heels. Be strong, see the truth, and run like hell.
Don’t be afraid to say, “I love you”. That is our ultimate goal. Love each other.
Yuck. I hate it when I’m so truthful.
what a great message.. so glad you shared this with us.
we will never stop here…
one love for chi,
gina
Chi’s gonna make it!
headup, tears in my eyes, everything is possible