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		<title>By: Barnaby</title>
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		<dc:creator>Barnaby</dc:creator>
		<pubDate>Thu, 11 Jun 2009 22:32:19 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description>Love you Chi!</description>
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		<title>By: fyreniyce</title>
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		<dc:creator>fyreniyce</dc:creator>
		<pubDate>Sun, 07 Jun 2009 22:43:38 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description>Aunt Jeanne
Thank you so much for taking the time to update us on Chi, I appreciated it!  Please send my love to the family and know that Pennsylvania fans are praying for them every day.  Hugs, Stephanie</description>
		<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Aunt Jeanne<br />
Thank you so much for taking the time to update us on Chi, I appreciated it!  Please send my love to the family and know that Pennsylvania fans are praying for them every day.  Hugs, Stephanie</p>
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		<title>By: Irae</title>
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		<dc:creator>Irae</dc:creator>
		<pubDate>Sun, 07 Jun 2009 22:28:52 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description>Thanks for your post Aunt Renée, i love reading the little tidbits about Chi like his head moves when you were wiping him. It shows our man is there, somewhere, almost ready to come back to us.</description>
		<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Thanks for your post Aunt Renée, i love reading the little tidbits about Chi like his head moves when you were wiping him. It shows our man is there, somewhere, almost ready to come back to us.</p>
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		<title>By: Dr. B.</title>
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		<dc:creator>Dr. B.</dc:creator>
		<pubDate>Sun, 07 Jun 2009 17:47:00 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description>Just wanted to let you know that even though I don&#039;t post comments often, I pray for strength, comfort, &amp; healing for Chi and family daily.  I&#039;m sure there are many fans out there that we haven&#039;t heard from who are silently doing the same.  All my love...</description>
		<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Just wanted to let you know that even though I don&#8217;t post comments often, I pray for strength, comfort, &amp; healing for Chi and family daily.  I&#8217;m sure there are many fans out there that we haven&#8217;t heard from who are silently doing the same.  All my love&#8230;</p>
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		<title>By: Noreen</title>
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		<dc:creator>Noreen</dc:creator>
		<pubDate>Sat, 06 Jun 2009 23:01:33 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description>I&#039;m just  another one of Chi&#039;s many fans who thinks about him all the time.  I pray for him as often as possible, and I wanted you to know that.

Love,
Noreen</description>
		<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>I&#8217;m just  another one of Chi&#8217;s many fans who thinks about him all the time.  I pray for him as often as possible, and I wanted you to know that.</p>
<p>Love,<br />
Noreen</p>
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		<title>By: Dkrtist</title>
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		<dc:creator>Dkrtist</dc:creator>
		<pubDate>Sat, 06 Jun 2009 20:31:50 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description>lol that will be one of the greatest f*****g days!</description>
		<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>lol that will be one of the greatest f*****g days!</p>
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		<title>By: SMOKEY</title>
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		<dc:creator>SMOKEY</dc:creator>
		<pubDate>Sat, 06 Jun 2009 17:35:13 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description>PATRICIA YOU ARE A BEAUTIFUL SOUL ,AND GOD BLESS YOU , YOU ARE A FIGHTER LIKE CHI (DAI).KEEP ON  KEEPIN ON...WHEN MY BUDDY WAS IN A COMA (FROM A RACING ACCIDENT,WE WERE RACING TOGETHER THAT NIGHT,HE WAS BEHIND ME AND I DID NOT SEE THE WRECK,LUCKILY).HE WAS COMA TOSE FOR 9 YRS. AND HE SHOWED NO SIGNS OF RECOVERY FROM DAY ONE,SO WHEN WE SEEN  CHI (DAI) AND THE STATE THAT HE IS IN I KNEW RIGHT AWAY THERE IS ALOT OF HOPE FOR HIM TO RECOVER, AND THROUGH ALL OF THE PEOPLE PRAYING FOR HIM AND HOW STRONG WILLED HE IS , I FEEL HE WILL COME OUT OF THIS... SO WHEN I HEARD MARCO DID NOT MAKE IT I THAUGHT RIGHT AWAY HE IS IN PEACE AND WILL NOT EVER HAVE TO GO THROUGHT WHAT MY BUDDY DID,(ALOT OF PAIN AND SUFFERING FOR 9 YRS.) ITS STILL HARD TO ACCEPT DEATH, BUT I TRUELY KNOW THERE ARE WORSE THINGS THEN DEATH.....BE STRONG YOU HAVE ALOT OF PEOPLE TO HELP YOU IN YOUR TIME OF HEARTACHE,AND THE WHOLE CHENG FAMILY IS YOUR FAMILY, CHI MADE US ALL ONE..............BE SAFE SMOKEY</description>
		<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>PATRICIA YOU ARE A BEAUTIFUL SOUL ,AND GOD BLESS YOU , YOU ARE A FIGHTER LIKE CHI (DAI).KEEP ON  KEEPIN ON&#8230;WHEN MY BUDDY WAS IN A COMA (FROM A RACING ACCIDENT,WE WERE RACING TOGETHER THAT NIGHT,HE WAS BEHIND ME AND I DID NOT SEE THE WRECK,LUCKILY).HE WAS COMA TOSE FOR 9 YRS. AND HE SHOWED NO SIGNS OF RECOVERY FROM DAY ONE,SO WHEN WE SEEN  CHI (DAI) AND THE STATE THAT HE IS IN I KNEW RIGHT AWAY THERE IS ALOT OF HOPE FOR HIM TO RECOVER, AND THROUGH ALL OF THE PEOPLE PRAYING FOR HIM AND HOW STRONG WILLED HE IS , I FEEL HE WILL COME OUT OF THIS&#8230; SO WHEN I HEARD MARCO DID NOT MAKE IT I THAUGHT RIGHT AWAY HE IS IN PEACE AND WILL NOT EVER HAVE TO GO THROUGHT WHAT MY BUDDY DID,(ALOT OF PAIN AND SUFFERING FOR 9 YRS.) ITS STILL HARD TO ACCEPT DEATH, BUT I TRUELY KNOW THERE ARE WORSE THINGS THEN DEATH&#8230;..BE STRONG YOU HAVE ALOT OF PEOPLE TO HELP YOU IN YOUR TIME OF HEARTACHE,AND THE WHOLE CHENG FAMILY IS YOUR FAMILY, CHI MADE US ALL ONE&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;..BE SAFE SMOKEY</p>
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		<title>By: SMOKEY</title>
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		<dc:creator>SMOKEY</dc:creator>
		<pubDate>Sat, 06 Jun 2009 17:15:37 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description>WOW RC THOSE WORDS ARE SO RIGHT ON,DAI IS GETTING THE KARMA BACK TO HIM FROM EVERYONE CHECKING OUT THIS SITE AND PRYING FOR HIM,THE PEOPLE FIGHTING FOR HIM,CAUSE HE IS A TRUE WARRIOR,WHEN IT COMES TO HELPING OTHERS,AND JUST BEING A GREAT MAN.....THESE POSTS&#039;S  OF POSITIVE VIBES REALLY HELP THE WHOLE FAMILY IN THIS TIME OF WAITING PATIENTLY FOR DAI TO LOOK UP AND SAY I AM READY TO GO HOME .
LETS F***IN GET OUT OF HERE...
SMOKEY</description>
		<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>WOW RC THOSE WORDS ARE SO RIGHT ON,DAI IS GETTING THE KARMA BACK TO HIM FROM EVERYONE CHECKING OUT THIS SITE AND PRYING FOR HIM,THE PEOPLE FIGHTING FOR HIM,CAUSE HE IS A TRUE WARRIOR,WHEN IT COMES TO HELPING OTHERS,AND JUST BEING A GREAT MAN&#8230;..THESE POSTS&#8217;S  OF POSITIVE VIBES REALLY HELP THE WHOLE FAMILY IN THIS TIME OF WAITING PATIENTLY FOR DAI TO LOOK UP AND SAY I AM READY TO GO HOME .<br />
LETS F***IN GET OUT OF HERE&#8230;<br />
SMOKEY</p>
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		<title>By: Matt's Mom</title>
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		<dc:creator>Matt's Mom</dc:creator>
		<pubDate>Sat, 06 Jun 2009 06:53:57 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description>Matt,,  A Mother&#039;s Love is forever!  No matter how old you are or where you go in this world, Moms  just worry, sometimes more than other times.  We are strong and can tolerate alot, the older we get, Ha-ha!!  we have the faith of God behind us and the Holy Spirit and Hope ahead of us! You keep on doing the great job you are doing, Matt!! Love ya.....  NO QUIT CHI,  Praying for you--always.</description>
		<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Matt,,  A Mother&#8217;s Love is forever!  No matter how old you are or where you go in this world, Moms  just worry, sometimes more than other times.  We are strong and can tolerate alot, the older we get, Ha-ha!!  we have the faith of God behind us and the Holy Spirit and Hope ahead of us! You keep on doing the great job you are doing, Matt!! Love ya&#8230;..  NO QUIT CHI,  Praying for you&#8211;always.</p>
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		<title>By: Patricia</title>
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		<dc:creator>Patricia</dc:creator>
		<pubDate>Sat, 06 Jun 2009 00:18:41 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description>Thank you so much, Aunt Renee for the update. I, too have been checking in when I can to see if there was any news, and was moved to tears by seeing his is out of ICU again. God bless him, and your wonderful family for all of the battles you and he have had to fight. For all of the battles won, and for those to come, I know he will give you strength to stay the course. Yes, our brother Chi IS LOVED. God bless him.
thank you for your continued support to my family &amp; I. We love your family like we are one. This painful, life changing experience of such great loss has brought with it so much beauty and hope. I understand that one cannot exist without the other, and continuously seek the lessons to be found. Gina and I spoke about how we wonder if sometimes we are not meant to know the reasons for such things. I struggle with that, but it is what it is, I suppose. All I know is I miss my little brother, and am grieving yet another devastating loss in my life. For whatever reason, his work here was done, and it was his time. I must find peace with that, and do find peace in the fact that he himself is in peace.
I am praying and hoping that Chi has a peaceful weekend, and that his warrior spirit continues to fight the good fight.

Thanks again, Aunt Renee. Much love to you, Jeanne &amp; the Cheng family.
(and LOVE to all the rest of you, too!)

much/onelove for chi</description>
		<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Thank you so much, Aunt Renee for the update. I, too have been checking in when I can to see if there was any news, and was moved to tears by seeing his is out of ICU again. God bless him, and your wonderful family for all of the battles you and he have had to fight. For all of the battles won, and for those to come, I know he will give you strength to stay the course. Yes, our brother Chi IS LOVED. God bless him.<br />
thank you for your continued support to my family &amp; I. We love your family like we are one. This painful, life changing experience of such great loss has brought with it so much beauty and hope. I understand that one cannot exist without the other, and continuously seek the lessons to be found. Gina and I spoke about how we wonder if sometimes we are not meant to know the reasons for such things. I struggle with that, but it is what it is, I suppose. All I know is I miss my little brother, and am grieving yet another devastating loss in my life. For whatever reason, his work here was done, and it was his time. I must find peace with that, and do find peace in the fact that he himself is in peace.<br />
I am praying and hoping that Chi has a peaceful weekend, and that his warrior spirit continues to fight the good fight.</p>
<p>Thanks again, Aunt Renee. Much love to you, Jeanne &amp; the Cheng family.<br />
(and LOVE to all the rest of you, too!)</p>
<p>much/onelove for chi</p>
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		<title>By: Dkrtist</title>
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		<dc:creator>Dkrtist</dc:creator>
		<pubDate>Fri, 05 Jun 2009 18:26:19 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description>Aunt Renee,
You know, every time I picture Chi in my mind I picture him better than you have described. Maybe it is wishful thinking, maybe I am naive. Maybe that is where my hope comes from, but I was thinking about it and I will continue to picture him this way. In fact I will visualize him even healthier, stronger than he is because, along with prayer, visualizations are such  fierce warriors in and of themselves. I feel for Chi and the whole family. I know how frustrating it can be. The not knowing. Karma has a way of working itself out just exactly right and I believe that Chi has phenomenal karma. He will get exactly what he needs when he needs it. I know it&#039;s cliche&#039; but the creator doesn&#039;t give us anything we can&#039;t handle, as painful as it may be. Chi is an admirable spirit warrior and I too think of him when the going gets tough or when I feel frustrated with life. I know so many others on this site feel the same way. If Chi can move so many others with his fighting spirit I have no other choice than to believe that he will come through this experience to continue to be a voice of love, a teacher and a master. Though I believe in miracles I think Chi will be more than that. I think he is bringing people together because he gets life and all of its hardships and sorrows. He understands that we are all the same and should all be treated with dignity and respect. That is rare to find in such a young soul. He is teaching us all how to love without saying a word and that speaks volumes about his character. I know your well of tears is empty, but the creator will fill it up again. He won&#039;t allow you to hide from your emotions because when you do that you hide your truth. The tears will come again to relieve you from your pain for a while. Know that my heart breaks for you and the family, but not once has it ever made me feel like Chi won&#039;t come through this. Not once. Until then we will wait.
Sending lots of love to you and your family.
Your sister in peace,
RC</description>
		<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Aunt Renee,<br />
You know, every time I picture Chi in my mind I picture him better than you have described. Maybe it is wishful thinking, maybe I am naive. Maybe that is where my hope comes from, but I was thinking about it and I will continue to picture him this way. In fact I will visualize him even healthier, stronger than he is because, along with prayer, visualizations are such  fierce warriors in and of themselves. I feel for Chi and the whole family. I know how frustrating it can be. The not knowing. Karma has a way of working itself out just exactly right and I believe that Chi has phenomenal karma. He will get exactly what he needs when he needs it. I know it&#8217;s cliche&#8217; but the creator doesn&#8217;t give us anything we can&#8217;t handle, as painful as it may be. Chi is an admirable spirit warrior and I too think of him when the going gets tough or when I feel frustrated with life. I know so many others on this site feel the same way. If Chi can move so many others with his fighting spirit I have no other choice than to believe that he will come through this experience to continue to be a voice of love, a teacher and a master. Though I believe in miracles I think Chi will be more than that. I think he is bringing people together because he gets life and all of its hardships and sorrows. He understands that we are all the same and should all be treated with dignity and respect. That is rare to find in such a young soul. He is teaching us all how to love without saying a word and that speaks volumes about his character. I know your well of tears is empty, but the creator will fill it up again. He won&#8217;t allow you to hide from your emotions because when you do that you hide your truth. The tears will come again to relieve you from your pain for a while. Know that my heart breaks for you and the family, but not once has it ever made me feel like Chi won&#8217;t come through this. Not once. Until then we will wait.<br />
Sending lots of love to you and your family.<br />
Your sister in peace,<br />
RC</p>
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		<title>By: Donna</title>
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		<dc:creator>Donna</dc:creator>
		<pubDate>Fri, 05 Jun 2009 06:41:50 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description>Thanks Aunt Renee, the fans all round the world appreciate this info - the important thing is Chi is doing better, slowly.

ONE LOVE FOR CHI!

Donna xo</description>
		<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Thanks Aunt Renee, the fans all round the world appreciate this info &#8211; the important thing is Chi is doing better, slowly.</p>
<p>ONE LOVE FOR CHI!</p>
<p>Donna xo</p>
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		<title>By: DeftonesLady81</title>
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		<dc:creator>DeftonesLady81</dc:creator>
		<pubDate>Fri, 05 Jun 2009 03:44:51 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description>Thank you SOOO much Aunt Renee!!! You have put my mind at ease. And thank you Gina for posting it!!! I am so happy that Chi is out of ICU!!! It will get better, we all know that he is a strong person and will pull through this.
laura</description>
		<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Thank you SOOO much Aunt Renee!!! You have put my mind at ease. And thank you Gina for posting it!!! I am so happy that Chi is out of ICU!!! It will get better, we all know that he is a strong person and will pull through this.<br />
laura</p>
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		<title>By: -BIGCHRIS-</title>
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		<dc:creator>-BIGCHRIS-</dc:creator>
		<pubDate>Fri, 05 Jun 2009 00:09:57 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description>&quot;And…. whatever happens, is not going to happen quickly. We have to practice patience.&quot;

One of my favorite Bible verses is... James 1:4
But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.

Thanks Aunt Renée for the awesome reminder...  We want Chi perfect and entire...  Praying today for you my brother!</description>
		<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>&#8220;And…. whatever happens, is not going to happen quickly. We have to practice patience.&#8221;</p>
<p>One of my favorite Bible verses is&#8230; James 1:4<br />
But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.</p>
<p>Thanks Aunt Renée for the awesome reminder&#8230;  We want Chi perfect and entire&#8230;  Praying today for you my brother!</p>
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		<title>By: Matt</title>
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		<dc:creator>Matt</dc:creator>
		<pubDate>Fri, 05 Jun 2009 00:03:02 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description>You know Aunt Renee, sometimes you gotta cry. There is no shame in that, everyone has their weaknesses and breaking points. I cried like a baby the night I said goodbye to my mom and sister and family before I left for here. The beer probably helped, but I could not tell you the last time I cried before that. I think it happened because there was a lot building up inside of me, like fear of coming here and leaving my 4 month old son and my wife for a year and so on and so on. But the trigger was seeing my family cry and knowing why they were crying. I knew they were scared that that might be the last time they saw me. It made me sad knowing that would be on there minds until I come home. It still sucks. So I cried too. It felt weird because in the military, you are supposed to be all strong, both physically and mentally. You kinda change after a while in here, lose some of that sad, emo shit. You are just trained to keep going, not to quit, and sometimes you just don&#039;t have time to be all sad. Like here. I talked to Gina about this a few weeks ago...stuff happens here and you need to act fast. If you stop and think or are just like, &quot;Oh shit&quot;, you put your buddies and yourself in danger. So you just go. After so long, you start becoming a little robot like. Like things that would make you mad or sad just has no effect on you anymore. I mean, it&#039;s kinda good to be like that here, but when you get home and are out of this enviroment and with your family, that is when it becomes a problem. But, WTF am I talking about...rambling. I guess what I am trying to say is, crying or showing emotion is good. People shouldn&#039;t hide it. I mean, if you don&#039;t cry or whatever, it doesn&#039;t mean you don&#039;t care, but if you feel it coming, let it out. It made me feel better after I finished my weep-a-thon that one night. And now, after being here for almost a year...when I hear emotion or sadness coming from my family through the phone, I get mad! Not at them, just mad that they are upset. It&#039;s frustrating knowing they hurt because of me sometimes. I am sure Dai feels the same way inside when he see&#039;s or hears or feels the sadness...he just wants to wake up and say to you guys, &quot;I am fine, let&#039;s get the fuck outta here already!&quot; I am praying that happens soon too! It will though, this experience I am having from this website and all the people who are a part of this, has given me a lot of hope. Not just that Dai is going to pull through, that&#039;s a given...but just in life period. I mean, all these stories and positive vibes I get from here, it makes the days better. And like PrayForChi09 said, I have been checking the site a few times a day to see an update about the latest ICU &quot;episode&quot; and am glad to hear he is out again, now let&#039;s all get our prayers and good Chi vibes out and send them straight to NorCal and get this man better! Love to you all...

NO QUIT CHI!!!
Matt</description>
		<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>You know Aunt Renee, sometimes you gotta cry. There is no shame in that, everyone has their weaknesses and breaking points. I cried like a baby the night I said goodbye to my mom and sister and family before I left for here. The beer probably helped, but I could not tell you the last time I cried before that. I think it happened because there was a lot building up inside of me, like fear of coming here and leaving my 4 month old son and my wife for a year and so on and so on. But the trigger was seeing my family cry and knowing why they were crying. I knew they were scared that that might be the last time they saw me. It made me sad knowing that would be on there minds until I come home. It still sucks. So I cried too. It felt weird because in the military, you are supposed to be all strong, both physically and mentally. You kinda change after a while in here, lose some of that sad, emo shit. You are just trained to keep going, not to quit, and sometimes you just don&#8217;t have time to be all sad. Like here. I talked to Gina about this a few weeks ago&#8230;stuff happens here and you need to act fast. If you stop and think or are just like, &#8220;Oh shit&#8221;, you put your buddies and yourself in danger. So you just go. After so long, you start becoming a little robot like. Like things that would make you mad or sad just has no effect on you anymore. I mean, it&#8217;s kinda good to be like that here, but when you get home and are out of this enviroment and with your family, that is when it becomes a problem. But, WTF am I talking about&#8230;rambling. I guess what I am trying to say is, crying or showing emotion is good. People shouldn&#8217;t hide it. I mean, if you don&#8217;t cry or whatever, it doesn&#8217;t mean you don&#8217;t care, but if you feel it coming, let it out. It made me feel better after I finished my weep-a-thon that one night. And now, after being here for almost a year&#8230;when I hear emotion or sadness coming from my family through the phone, I get mad! Not at them, just mad that they are upset. It&#8217;s frustrating knowing they hurt because of me sometimes. I am sure Dai feels the same way inside when he see&#8217;s or hears or feels the sadness&#8230;he just wants to wake up and say to you guys, &#8220;I am fine, let&#8217;s get the fuck outta here already!&#8221; I am praying that happens soon too! It will though, this experience I am having from this website and all the people who are a part of this, has given me a lot of hope. Not just that Dai is going to pull through, that&#8217;s a given&#8230;but just in life period. I mean, all these stories and positive vibes I get from here, it makes the days better. And like PrayForChi09 said, I have been checking the site a few times a day to see an update about the latest ICU &#8220;episode&#8221; and am glad to hear he is out again, now let&#8217;s all get our prayers and good Chi vibes out and send them straight to NorCal and get this man better! Love to you all&#8230;</p>
<p>NO QUIT CHI!!!<br />
Matt</p>
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