Saturday Mar. 28 afternoon with Dai
Came back to the rental pimp pad for quick shower and update.
When I took Dai out in his wheelchair to look out at the bay, golden gate and sun. I was asking him to lift a leg for me. Wasn’t getting much. Then I saw an angry look in his eye. Look like he was gonna cry and shit. I came in grabbed his hand to tell him everything was gonna be alright. But he was 
like doing sit ups in his wheelchair and raising both legs at the same time. He’s never been able to pull something that physical off.
I kept him in the chair the rest of the Day. came back caught rock of love bus. Listened to the CD gina overnighted of all you wonderful fans that recorded an audio track to my brother. I only listened to one so far and it straight made me want to cry. And me and Dai’s credo is that a man should never cry after 30-unless his mother dies. Kind of kidding. Kind of not.
Big boys don’t cry. ever heard that?
Dai told me, even when our youngest brother overdosed last year-that he quit crying after his divorce was over. Maybe it’s the meds I’m on, but in a way I kind of like the occasional cry. It’s a change for me.
Life is suffering.
Spot on Buddha. Good call.
But maybe it’s suffering, death and hardships that make joy, and life and triumphs sweeter and worth it.
member that QOTSA line “I need something good to die for-to make it beautiful to live.”?
Quick shower and I’m running back to spend the nite again. Don’t really get cell connection (mostly just text) on the hill in Dais room. but it’s been nice being cut off, old school style-from the world and actually have some good quality time with my bro.
Thank you all so much for everything. The donations. The goodwill. I was starting lose faith in your kind(humans). But that’s how we always see the other worlds. As aliens.
was supposed to leave today. Sunshine has school on monday. Straight A kid my 9 year old. It changed my life to become a full time single parent. No booze. No super partying. just kid, now a lady and music (always-my four track recordings rock! My chick is a phenomenal drummer for only been playing 8 months). Everyday I have is a small victory.
Cheers from -M. & Dai
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All donations go 100% to Chi's care. Thank you so much for your love and support. One love for Chi, Gina
thanks for the update. you know life isnt just about suffering, its about living too. dont forget that. were all praying for your brother chi. i cant tell you the influence him and his band have had on my life. one love. aaron
This made me cry. I'm so happy he's coming back to you all. I've met him once and I've never have a 10 minute meeting effect my whole life. There is something special and beautiful about Chi. There are lessons to be learned everywhere and it seems like his was a spirit journey. He'll come out better, wiser, and stronger. Your love keeps him going. There is a spark of the divine in him as well as the rest of the Chengs. I don't know any of you, but I feel much MUCH love for you all.
Sending positive healing energy your way.
Love & Light
SAM
Chi will rise up. His soul possess’ amazing strength.
keep doing what you are doing, music is the one of the best things to get the nerve endings to reconnect. my daughter loved the tones, but at night while she was sleeping i played classical music…may sound crazy, but it sure isn’t going to hurt anything and might help. sammie doesn’t have much in the way of short-term memory but she somehow nows all lyrics, and i mean ALL, to things i didn’t even think she had ever heard.
we are praying here in Pennsylvania for chi and your family, for his recovery and strength for you!!! don’t give up and keep stimulating him! the brain is an amazing thing and will heal, it just takes time….love from pa, stephanie
Brother Ming…. im glad to hear Chi is making progress. your continuous updates inspire me, and help me keep faith that someday soon he’ll be back and walking around, laughing, and still not eating fruit(Haha) anyway, take care brothers…please keep in touch, Gina has my number.
Schwab
Apologies, but I only found out about Chi’s accident today. Just done calling up my Deftones friends over here (Ireland) and they’re all shocked and saddened. Glad to hear he’s on the mend, we’re sending our best wishes and come payday somethink to help the financial efforts.
Last time I saw him play was at RockAMRing in Germany 3 years back. Amazing set. Minerva blasted over the top of the German valleys and delivered the sort of positive sence of wellbeing that could cleanse the most troubled of souls. The positive energy him and the band have given the world will surely be paid back in spades.
Best wishes to you, your family and Chi.