Saturday Mar. 28 eve. w. Dai/ cOWLICKlADYbLUES

Posted by on Mar 29, 2009 in Family Visits With Chi | 7 comments

I got the cowlick lady blues. But in a good way.
Anyway, it’s 10:30pm and me and Dai are settling in on some Marley and maybe some six feet under. Been a good day. Got a little more action out of him physically. He’s seems kind of beat. But I’m not gonna let him off quite yet. We’ll all have plenty of time to sleep when we’re dead. I’ve got my telecaster, his acoustic, the laptop(but no internet-it’s actually feels like a vacation without it and cell reception) electronic drums in car(wish my old lady, oops, er- my drummer was here and my best friend.)
When we bunked together as kids- one night we had the same dream. We’ve always been somewhat psychically linked to some extent. It’s nice to have a soul that you can not see for a year, but when you do it’s like you just saw him yesterday. Told Dai at the last facility- You don’t quit on me, I don’t quit on you. I’m sure we’ve always had this pact.
Sunshine starts school (back from spring break in Idaho), but we’ll see if I start the drive tomorrow. It’s gonna be hard to leave him. I have a kid to raise, a lady I love- but as I have been less than even p.t. employed for the last six months I’ve decided to dedicate as much time as I can to help my brother as much as time allows. Promo, updating the onelove( and I’m serious, when we get Dai back-we should dedicate this site into changing the world. That was Gina’s idea. I want us all to save the world and she insists on waiting for Dai to be onboard, which I’m cool with. One thing done well at a time. But yeah, we are all the hundredth monkey waiting to act and bring the revolution), getting out here as much as I can and balancing my everyday life is the plan.
One way or another, the show must go on. I got to see the Who a couple days after John Entwistle died of a cocaine overdose in Vegas. I’m pretty sure I played a shitty bar in Roseville within a week of my brother hanging himself. I didn’t have too. I wanted too. Even the tones will have to move on without Dai for now(with Serge Quicksand pinch hitting). I hear they are ebaying the opening slot on the mainstage of Bamboozle as a benefit to Dai which is great. I’m not sure how long it will take before Dai is back on stage(dammit Jim, I’m a stagehand not a Doctor)- but it’s only time. Not only is this the title of one of the greatest records ever made(good luck finding Mark Currys first record- check Amazon), but methinks it’s one of life’s little truths that’s often hard to swallow.
Live while we are here. Do what we can. For others and then ourselves.
I can’t tell you how grateful I am to all of you kind souls that are reaching out to my bro. The energy, kindness and love has been the greatest miracle I’ve ever seen. Guess it shows that all the love my brother put in the world has come back to him. Maybe tenfold.
Listening to some kid on the CD that ya’ll recorded for Dai, talking bout when he gets his next unemployment check and gets his drivers liscense paid for he was gonna try to give more than 25 bucks. I just couldn’t believe it. I ain’t got a job really. My old lady just got one for $8 and we’re excited. We’ve been living on Credit Cards and food stamps. I still am. Anyway, it just really made me start to get weepy. I was so moved I couldn’t listen anymore. Maybe you right Wan- maybe I am turning soft. Everyone has the misconception that I’m a rock and have no feelings. No- I’m uber sensitive, insecure and emotional just like everyone else. But I try everyday to do the right things and be objective. Quitting drinking has everything to do with that.
Well, gonna get back into some Six Feet Under. If you’ve never seen this show(HBO-cancelled, u can find it on Netflix or Hollywood) I highly recommend checking it out. Okay then. Will try and hit you before I hit the road 2morrow. If not when I get home. Cheerios kids. Love, -M.

7 Comments

  1. Gina Blackmore | 03/29/2009 at 8:04pm

    great blog brother.. as always… we love hearing from you. much love.. talk to you soon..

    love,
    gina

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  2. Anonymous | 03/29/2009 at 8:32pm

    Thank you for these updates they mean the world to us. I for one would like to do more to help, I have donated money but I feel I could do more to get the word out.

    If there is anything we can do, if its get a live fund raising event together sell t-shirts anything YOU LET US KNOW HERE ASAP.

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  3. josef | 03/29/2009 at 10:37pm

    Nice post M , hopefully all this energy will wake our brother up soon.
    We need him back the world just wouldn’t be the same.

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  4. melissa | 03/30/2009 at 3:21am

    i look forward to reading all of these blog entries. and i really appreciate being able to be a part of chi’s recovery. the deftones have had a heavy influence on me since the first day i heard them..and though my cash flow is very limited, i would love to be able to help when i am able to…especially for chi.. after hearing and seeing what great things he has done for others out of the pure kindness of his heart.. he has a beautiful soul, and hes touched enough people to allow a lot of others to reveal their inner beauty and generosity as well..its an amazing thing.

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  5. Tom | 03/30/2009 at 10:01am

    Is there any chances that he would recover to the point that he was before the accident?
    Stay strong Chi we have faith in you!

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  6. juan g | 03/30/2009 at 4:55pm

    sending my love to my friend. he will b with us in spirit every day till he is back in flesh.. chi is one of the nicest people ive ever met and he along with the rest of the boys have made my life what it is today .. juan

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  7. Stephi | 03/30/2009 at 8:28pm

    Just finished reading all the entries. I, like many others, have been so sad since the accident, worrying about Chi. But I have faith that he will be ok, so I put worrying on the backburner.

    I wish you and the family all the love and courage in the world. This too shall pass.

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